Finally

After much of the past month, they released him today after they got most of the fluid out of him., should pull in sometime after midnight. I hate to say it, but it has been quieter with him coralled.  Atleast I have been sleeping more than 3-4...

As my world turns

This is the 3rd hospitalzation this month for T. They drain him, and within 24 hrs, he swells right back up........WTF??? He went to the referral appt at the center for liver disease/transplant. they found the other place had not been doing what...

WOW

I knew deep inside that he wasnt going to be able to maintain, the stubborn old shit. he was doing what he wanted, eating after I went to bed. And yes, I was monitering his intake, his salt, his liquids... I wasnt starving him, but I was portioning...

Still maintaining

I started another post, but it disappeared with one of those random clicks from nowhere, fingr jerk, whatever and it was gone. Well.....dang. Atleast it gave me a moment to get a few things off my mind and I guess it was just God letting me know that...

She's Loose

So, here is how it went. T ended up IN the hospital, his ammonia levels in his blood were off the charts. This had also affected his comprehension, behaviors, his moods. I did a lot of talking to alot of people about this. It took both my sons to get...

uggggg...........

This week was so very bad, on all accounts. Last night I hit the end of the road and couldnt find my way out, or breathe, or think. T's illnes has become so bad, I was reclusing, he was or had become so angry, so verbally abusive that I doubt he even...

AZ land of the WTF's

So yesterday we did the appt. that were set, the morning went good, we were recertified, so that is a load off. Then all of a suddn it was afternoon. Getting the other half into see a Docor is like puling teeth. H did not want to go, but he could...

Gonna be a long week

I am sitting here waiting for the other half to call and let me know when he is gonna pull in, he went up to Phoenix to check on Son to make sure he had his meds and was eating....I like wanted to go, but had to stay home due to Jj being on an outing...

Just a little rain

The rest of the country is getting covered with ice and all its doing here is drizzling. A little rain is good for the dessert I suppose. Makes for an icky outside and good day to stay in. Packers play today, and I have netflix, so I will be good....

No ice or rain or winter here

Like I said last night, I went to bed, knowing I have to get up early and sign him into class. I heard that the stuff went on till 4 in the morning, with T finally taking the guy over to his sisters after his wife threw all his stuff out on the front...

tg today is over

I have been watching a psycho break progressing accross the street, staying the hell away, shutting my door when it gets too loud, or too personal...I do not want to know who is screwing who, or when, or any of the particuclars.....I may not speak...

Onward

THANK GOD!!! They are finally over with (The Holidays) For me its like waiting out a bad constipation, or  toothache or worse....I just want to hide from Thanksgiving on out. And this happens every year. Im not a grumpy Gus, really, or negative, I...

So tired

I talked to son up in Phoenix    today after his Dr appt, and he is going to see every "ologist" there is on staff. When the Dr came in she expected to see a bent over little old man, not a 6'2" big one! Mostly she was astounded by the pain tolerance...

SSDD

"So my leg hasn't worked right since Nov 1st, have had to use a walker, crutches, cane... was hospitalized with blood clot that had infection and it still won't stop... It's been a month and a half and it's not getting better. I am in constant pain,...

piffle

I happened upon an old post wher someone had said I was "too" negative. Well whoopty doo...got a whole lot of stuff I have to deal with, from a son with a stage 4 CKD, to a mid fiddies spouse with a medical condition that disables him cause he leaks...

as my world turns

Today is the other halfs 56th  birthday. Did I bake him a cke, well in fct no I didnt. He is never home to enjoy it, I managed to corner him for a short bit to take me to an appt, and he dropped me back off as fast as he could.  he goes over to his...

sigh............but ok for now

yesterday.....he started in on me again during the late afternoon. Screaming how we didnt help him, he hated this town, hated being here. what he was screaming at us was we werent handing over any $...we dont have any for gods sake. I have laundry...

Anxiety issues, still there....

330 in the morning and I get screamed awake by son in the middle of a raging panic attack. (oh boy) havent seen one of those for a while and it brought back every ugly feeling there is. I knew deep down, it wasnt over, that anxiety disorder lays in...

Do you believe in gut feeling, intuition???

JJ went back to school after a 5 day suspension for defending his "mother" which taken in regards to what was said ah jabbed another kid with a pencil. What was said appearently was "you mother is nothing but a fat old slut"....well alrighty then....

Yup, I'm still here

The meeting never happened, we got stuck in Florence waiting for other  sons release, they were suppposed to release him at 1030, but it was dam near 5 when they did. I emailed the advocates, called the school, let everyone know we were not going to...

Trying, just trying

For 2 days I have been in a complete meltdown, angry, crying when I replay that meeting, which goes through my head constantly. I asked one of my kids, when they were in school, did they draw on their book, folder, extra pieces of paper. I believe its...

Meeting met

We went to that meeting this morning, and it was just as I suspected it would be. It was supposed to be (1) teacher and the Special Ed Teacher, and it was them, the psychologist, the principal, another lady that I have no idea who. thank god I had my...

Every day Chit

I finally got the other half to check out the vacuum for me, I figured the belt was shot and was going to have to get another, cept it a Dyson(got it as a throw out cuz the person that had it didnt know how to use it) now..... one of those would be...

Sunday mumbles

I finally threw a tantrum and got my desk top machine up and running. Poor thing has been sitting there plugged in, doing nothing. I found out the other half had let the neighbor use my keyboard and wireless mouse, I believe that is when I hit the...