crack dem knuckles and get busy

I just cant sit here doing nothing. I get up in the morning, look at the house and just sit down and put my head down. My ambition seems to be waning, my incentive...same. I wat until it is time to go back to bed, thats what I look for. When I am...

SSDD

Due to the Holidays, I havent been able to get back up there, but I have been chatting with him on fb messager. he said they finally weighed him and he is now at 380. How much bigger is he going to get b4 he pops, or his heart just stops. he says he...

I finally got to see him

All day I thought it was tuesday, hell, I dont even know what day it is anymore unless I check the computer calendar. Hubby is now in a SNF (skilled nursing facility) he's not able to come home due to all of his health problems. He was transferred on...

sunday nondaay

In this ongoing saga on 16th street, it never stops does it. I have done some investigating of my own and have uncovered afew nasties, but have to sit on them. The people periphally speaking are starting to turn on each other and fingers are being...

Saturday do-da's

The mister is being very contrary. I think it is because they dont tell him what they are doing. They brought a nephrologist into the mix, he is running his own battery of tests and not explaining what he is doing. They are doing levels on him to see...

Still maintaining

Other half is still in the hospital.....it is a whole lot worse than we all thought or knew, throw in kidneys that are trying to have issues, along with the liver failure. I have been told he will probably go into a SNF when they release him. His care...

worthless in Douglas

We finally got him in and convinced to stay. He is so so so sick. he is more out of his mind than present. He is demanding, and angry. They tell me that is part of the illness andhaving his balances out of wack for so long. they dont know how much...

hangingon for dear life

LBL, was taken back to Phoenix where he said he would readmit..He is so confused, and I am not going to go  through this past week again, not for anything or anybody. I know he is sick, terribly sick, but I can only do so much, the family can only do...

LBL...continues

It was hard today. I could see that the levels were increasing, by watching his behaviors. AND, he cant even control his body functions now. He is peeing/soiling his pants before he can get to a bathroom. Its urge and immediate, as in right effing...

little boy lost

After this past week, I have been gathering and putting more puzzle pieces regarding other half. Dam, I wish I couldve been there for him when he was much younger. I have to wonder if he wouldve been different had circumstances been different. I had...

Finally

After much of the past month, they released him today after they got most of the fluid out of him., should pull in sometime after midnight. I hate to say it, but it has been quieter with him coralled.  Atleast I have been sleeping more than 3-4...

As my world turns

This is the 3rd hospitalzation this month for T. They drain him, and within 24 hrs, he swells right back up........WTF??? He went to the referral appt at the center for liver disease/transplant. they found the other place had not been doing what...

WOW

I knew deep inside that he wasnt going to be able to maintain, the stubborn old shit. he was doing what he wanted, eating after I went to bed. And yes, I was monitering his intake, his salt, his liquids... I wasnt starving him, but I was portioning...

Still maintaining

I started another post, but it disappeared with one of those random clicks from nowhere, fingr jerk, whatever and it was gone. Well.....dang. Atleast it gave me a moment to get a few things off my mind and I guess it was just God letting me know that...

She's Loose

So, here is how it went. T ended up IN the hospital, his ammonia levels in his blood were off the charts. This had also affected his comprehension, behaviors, his moods. I did a lot of talking to alot of people about this. It took both my sons to get...

uggggg...........

This week was so very bad, on all accounts. Last night I hit the end of the road and couldnt find my way out, or breathe, or think. T's illnes has become so bad, I was reclusing, he was or had become so angry, so verbally abusive that I doubt he even...

AZ land of the WTF's

So yesterday we did the appt. that were set, the morning went good, we were recertified, so that is a load off. Then all of a suddn it was afternoon. Getting the other half into see a Docor is like puling teeth. H did not want to go, but he could...

Gonna be a long week

I am sitting here waiting for the other half to call and let me know when he is gonna pull in, he went up to Phoenix to check on Son to make sure he had his meds and was eating....I like wanted to go, but had to stay home due to Jj being on an outing...

Just a little rain

The rest of the country is getting covered with ice and all its doing here is drizzling. A little rain is good for the dessert I suppose. Makes for an icky outside and good day to stay in. Packers play today, and I have netflix, so I will be good....

No ice or rain or winter here

Like I said last night, I went to bed, knowing I have to get up early and sign him into class. I heard that the stuff went on till 4 in the morning, with T finally taking the guy over to his sisters after his wife threw all his stuff out on the front...

tg today is over

I have been watching a psycho break progressing accross the street, staying the hell away, shutting my door when it gets too loud, or too personal...I do not want to know who is screwing who, or when, or any of the particuclars.....I may not speak...

Onward

THANK GOD!!! They are finally over with (The Holidays) For me its like waiting out a bad constipation, or  toothache or worse....I just want to hide from Thanksgiving on out. And this happens every year. Im not a grumpy Gus, really, or negative, I...

So tired

I talked to son up in Phoenix    today after his Dr appt, and he is going to see every "ologist" there is on staff. When the Dr came in she expected to see a bent over little old man, not a 6'2" big one! Mostly she was astounded by the pain tolerance...

SSDD

"So my leg hasn't worked right since Nov 1st, have had to use a walker, crutches, cane... was hospitalized with blood clot that had infection and it still won't stop... It's been a month and a half and it's not getting better. I am in constant pain,...