uggggg!!!!!!!!!!!

I am ok right now, only because I spent the entire morning saying NO in every way I could... When the boy got his car fixed, to the tune of 1100.00, it was...Ma, I will pay it, just write the checks and I will buy them back,,,,,that was a big...

bye sweetie.....

For those that have had a furchild(dog, cat...etc) that was their love, their confident,The one that didnt care how bad your hair looked, or if your clothes werent right, or it was laundry day and you smelled like it, they loved you exclusivly,...

summer...hot...uffda

Yesterday was dam near 100 in the shade. I am not by any means a heat loving person.....I like it right around 75 degrees or so. At work, we have to wear a uniform....full uniform, and I thought  I was gonna croak for a bit....I took off the...

Well, I'm working on it!

Today we got quite a bit done really, little piddly stuff, but still, stuff that needed to get done. I called the son and asked him if he had gotten the lab values from when he had to go in and have his knees drained and was he going to get them...

I cant fix it, what kind of mother am I anyway

In the past 12 hrs, I have had no less than 3 crisis either call me at work. at home or walk in my door. I was up until after 2 this am, going to get the oldest cause he had a bleed he couldnt stop, turned out it was cause he wasnt taking his meds,...

We r still here

Told my other half this morning that either we got left behind or it didnt happen... I have to wonder just who and why there are actually people that acctually believe that crap. When my time comes, I just want to go, I dont want to see it coming...

wtf, now what?

OK, so I went and had the "big" physical for work, the eyes, the ears, the drug test, breathalizer...passing everything with flying colors, and then we get to the physician..a dowdy little prune that acted like she didnt know what she was doing,...

Last nite was a surprise

Last night was my monday so to speak. My regular sup wasnt there, we had the Lt. and thats kool, prior to his promotion to Lt., he WAS our supervisor, so its good to work with him once in a while. He says to me, did you get my message????well, no......

So...where is skott??

I'm gone for a couple of days, no time to write anything, it was a week from hell so to speak and I jump on, ready to read my favorites, and one of them is gone...totally, even his comments to MY blog are gone, wtf???where'd ya go skott, your being...

DO YOU EVEN KNOW YOUR JOB???WTF

So I am in the alarm central, got 4 pages of alarms going, got contractors, abaters, surveyors, company personel, etc, al going in or wanting in, gotta get a guard over to search....this is shift change happening for us and my supervisor comes in and...

jumping through hoops.....

So, we got the first check from the Ins. Co, made out to us, and oh btw...the mortgage co.  too....couldnt do a thing with it, had to send it snail mail to them to endorse, so they can send it back, pushing everything out 2 wks.....what they did give...

It finally came in...sort of

Today I picked up my new tool, but it wasnt what I wanted originally, instead of the 9MM, I ended up with a 380. A little smaller, not as heavy, a little less kick, but it will do I suppose... I got it home, took it out of the box, drew the slide a...

empty nest.......finally.......

The last one finally left to make a nest of his own...thank god. I thought he was never going to leave. I feel bad about the grandkids not being here, I worry about them, but they are not my kids and not my responsibility. My responsibility is...

I have a good tude..really.....

Last night went ok..no little games, no smart remarks, no feel good exercises for me to think about. Just the last nite of a long week. When I say week, its the full 7, we work 7 on and 2 0ff. I let myself get all pissy about the night before when...

FINALLY....he's gone

I thought for sure he was going to try and pick some kind of fight this morning or stage a tantrum, or do something that would immediately put me on the defensive. Last night the Mr. told me about a conversation he had with him and the results of said...

good lord...she's got a gun

I have had myself so upset about going armed at work I think I have made myself sick. I get all kinds of encouragement, but not always the right kind. Being told I am too thinskinned, get over it...that kind of encouragement, just doesnt do it for me....

2nd interview

So...the Mr. had his second interview...He seemed fairly upbeat about it....the interviewer didnt tell him no, only that he would be getting a call....lordy, this job thing is nerve wracking and it isnt even me having to do it, well yet anyway. I...

there I am...

those two guys in the picture are my "little guys" the one in the white hat is the one that is sick. see how his face is so round, that is what I believe the call"moon-phase" side effect of the amount of steroids he has to take to keep his disease at...

Second Interview for the Mr.

Oh thank god, he had an interview and has been called back for a second.....seems they want to test his literacy and retention.(cause he's older...he just turned 50) what the hell is that all about?what do they think, your braincells shut down before...

still a mom

I have been wrestling with writing about an issue I am dealing with.  It is my belief that no parent should have to outlive their child, and age is but a number, once a child, always a child, to the parent. I ws 25 when I had my twins..(they) were...

Write here, or write in secret?

I guess I do both. Right now I need both. Day before yeasterday, I was working on a few things here and the dogs go off, nothing new in that, but this was a furious,"someone is coming in here bark" ,scuse me....barksssss. It was the Mr.  He informs...

Every day I learn something new, sort of

Atleast I hope I do. Atleast if it sounds new, I blink, trying to register it in my memory......ya, I think I still have on of those. You would think after a lifetime of being told to watch my mouth, shut up, change your atitude, myob, I wouldnt...

still thinking, perhaps stfu isnt such a bad idea

I have been reading a few of the blogs, dam, a lot of eating disorders out there, and very young girls trying to starve themselves to please WHO? When I was a teen, a long long time ago, I did the pruge thing, hell, I could even get diet pills, was...

STFU

Busted....caught the rumor mill cranking up last night at work and stopped it in its tracks...a coworker comes out and say "did u hear the latest" and proceeded to bleat about the same issues that have been rearing their ugly little heads, except...

does anyone but god have the right to judge you

Ifound myself offended over a statement that was made to "us"...out of the blue, from outerspace or where ever it came from, it bothered the heck out of me. during a simple update hi mom call from hubby to his mom, letting her know Ething was...