ya well........

I havent been here in a bit of a while, been going through a boatload of BS, trying to strighten things out, but it just winds itself up again. The other twin, the one in Ks, his wife left him and went back to her  BF, the one she had the kid with,...

WTH

I thought things couldnt get any more confusing...boy was I wrong.  This last week was a total cluster f*ck of epic proportion. I am still reeling over it and to top it off, cant say anything. (they dont read this, so I am safe here) By cant saying...

Sunday

Today has been a little better. I suppose even God lets the weary rest.  The recent past here and ongoing anxiety issues have us on edge and the other half and I have become snippy with each other. He gets strung out and he goes across the street and...

Panic

This has been a long month, oh hell, they all are I guess. Son that came down here, and he IS the one with anxiety issue(turns out a whole lot more than just that) has been having meltdown after meltdown, and he gets seriously manic. Scary manic. he...

School is Out.....here

The 25th was their last day, I am glad this year is all over. They passed JJ, with 5 D's and an F. The F was in science, to which he had an A, do you think this was deliberate, going from a A to an F. I do. I have been looking at the Charter Schools...

Got through this week!

wow, that yongest son of mine is exhausting. I think he relishes "drama"   If he doesnt personally have anythiing to complain about, I think he stays up nites thinking of ways to crank some up. You would think if given a chance to start over (again)...

Update on the kid

We went to the "administrative Hearing" for JJ. I must say we went as a united front...Grampa, Daddy, me, JJ and the Advocates from the counseling place. They came on all appropriate and semi formal, letting us know that the meeting was being recorded...

AZ living

Oh heck, I am still here. That in itself isnt necessarily bad. I have just been doing the non working gramma thing in a town where being white is the mighty 5% of the pop. so yay..... I have found some difficult moments, but nothing that has cost...

Feeling good about life

I am loving it here is AZ. The town is small and welcoming and I feel like I am finally home. We have gone through all of the set up, the school, found the library, the power company and cable. The TV isnt all that important but the internet is. We...

yup

 this was one of those apps on FB..so I took it, didnt tell me anything  didnt already know, but atleast I cant say "told you so" to a few!  

yup

 this was one of those apps on FB..so I took it, didnt tell me anything  didnt already know, but atleast I cant say "told you so" to a few!  

AZ...we made it

We fianally made it, almost 1300 miles, darn near straight through. T driving the big moving truck and me driving ours, both loaded to the max. T had the dogs in the truck cab with him and I had JJ with all the house plants I refused to leave behind....

Hide..they're home

I retreat to our room simply because I don't want to be blamed for anything, by any one. When I do venture out, I sit at the little corner of the kitchen table, away from everyone else, I turn on my little pink computer and roam the world... DIL is...

Sunday musings

I seem to be getting used to going to bed before 10..Dont know that I like  that. I feel like all I do is sleep. But I know better then that. I doubt the girl has cleaned anything other than her own bedroom since we have been here..Last night I made...

Getting closer

I was reading about a couple that had "special" kids. Bout broke my heart it did....having kids only to know they are going to pass before they reach their teens. I dont know if I could do it. I would though, do it that is.  I remember when  twin 1...

just thoughts, some progress

Well, what do ya know, we got the lease signed for a place in AZ..I so need to get out of here. It seems like everyday there is something to snark, or sass about. Living with your children, whether you have to or not, is not the way to go. I have...

just thinking

I have accomplished yet another move, but not the one I wanted. We have ended up moved in with Son and DIL, which you can guess she is not very happy with.   She wouldnt dare say so,  simply because we are where their extra money comes from as I...

sigh.....................................................

So yesterday, a half hour before my shift is over, there stands my son outside the door and someone telling me it is an emergency. WTF...I had at this point been up for close to 20 hrs, I had Civilian Police training the day before which cut my down...

life is improving

I got through the "week of training" and go to "soft landing" on Monday. That is where you will be active on the floor, but you will have the assistance of  other associates/Teamleads to help you should you falter. I didnt do the phone in training,...

Staying on top

2 days into the new/old job and by gosh nd golly, the brain cells are waking up and I am remembering. Again, I am the only old lady, only white in the class....wtf, dont old white people work any  more? This is the job about the payday loans. I...

Wow

I got a call from one of the places I applied to....actually one of the first places I worked when I first got here, and wonders be, they were excited to hear from me. Could it be cause I am not a kid, or a drama queen, dont have a record and can give...

Long day

What a long day, this morning I had a interview, seems like I may have a job, I cannot take sitting around, much less trying to live on what I could bring home in less than 2 wks..dont like the poor thingie. Then, I had that Dr appt for JJ for the...

sigh

Twin 1 packed up his bedroom and down the road they all went. I dont know why I feel so weepy about this. atleast they took that son of hers with them. like omg.......that alone is worth a hoorah or 2. I tell ya, I do not have the patience for taking...

wah

My kid is helping his gf totally move into "thier" new place this weekend and wants to know if I am coming...ummmmm   NO. He says why not you can supervise. Hell thats just a different word for babysit...and after 2 wks of her young man...OH HELL NO....

Monday in Kansas

We had a short reprive, I am talking a couple of hours and he was right back here.....god dam all to hell. yesterday there was a big blowup here between me and the son...I was ready to start packing and move on. No skin off my ass, its his lease...