what the heck day is it

Right now everything is supposed to be falling into place, and it is as far as (JJ)yes, he has a name and this is what we call him...we had the SW "eyes on" visit this morning. This is the one where they have to have documentation that he actually in...

wow.

That my friends was one of the most difficult meeting I have gone through. The first one was 2 SW and the GAL (guardian ad lidem) He my friends is a dick of epic proportions. He sat there saying he had never met me except inpassing a couple of years...

Angels are sitting on my shoulder

We are leaving pretty soon for the infamous last minute meetings with the SW for Little Mr. Wish us good luck plz. It is my understanding today are the guideline setting, and the formalitties are Sept 4 with him being her from today on.....wow, will...

More Saturday Randomosity

I dont know if it was the letter to our congressman, or persistance, my initial letter, or what exactly is happening here. I got a call yesterday before work from one of the 3 that were here the other  day. Not the Original SW, but her boss I...

3 for the price of 1

Wow, a week, and and I havent shared anything. WTH? I feel like I have been talking my fool head off and not getting anywhere. Today was the  "Home visit" Not 1 SW, Not 2, but 3....Intimidating, yes, did I handle myself without the hair standing up on...

Just thinkin.....

I think somebody is not being completely honest here, and it isnt us...you couldnt live a more open book concept than we are... We took #1 grandson over to mama for a visit at daddys request and permission and she stood there and told us about our...

Meeting 2...........hmmmmm?

We got through it, and  the UA's came back negative, as in clean and I got to say "I told you so" and told them I earned that right! They werent upset about it...although they did seem a little surprised. The SW brought up the fact I had cameras on...

It ain't Monday...its Friday(for me)

What a long weekend!  I was telling the coworker we pick up, that for days I have had this feeling of the "other shoe drop", couldnt really pinpoint what was giving me this feeling, just kind of an edgy, anxious feeling. Nothing new in my life, but...

One hoop done..next!

I am happy to report that both of us were able to "go" when we stopped on the way to work yesterday. The woman that was there was older, not the young girl that was there earlier. She handed me a cup with "a handle" on it, kind of like a cardboard...

To pee or not to pee

Ach...Got home about 130 this morning and thought I would check my email and see if there was anything in there from the SW. and there it was, a note from her saying she had finally gotten a referral over to Justice Sanctions for the UA. Now, I have...

Just rambling....

Last night was a little tough. I went in with the I can do it attitude, but I still carrried the feeling of seriously needing to be somewhere else. Perhaps the past few days, weeks, whatever have  been catching up with me and making me want to hide,...

MEETING 1, done, next?

OK...so we went through the meeting, the FIRST meeting anyway. I think on this one they just wanted to feel us out and see what we expected. They knew I had been having contact with the FM, and Little Mr., quite regularly, and he had been calling...

Hump Day

For the last few weeks I have not been able to find my camera, it always sat on my desk when it wasnt in my purse, and suddenly it was no where.  Privately I had one of those sinking feelings that perhaps someone during one of the showings had snagged...

Life just keeps moving along

I took the post with son down, enuff and I know it. I only needed to share momentarily the final(hopefully) last straw..He is doing ok now and his gf is proving to be quiet the take charge kind of person and not letting him out of her sight while...

TGIF, lordy............

#1, twin 2 is on the mend, went to see him and they are trying to get his potassium levels to where they are supposed to be. he fianlly saw the picture his son had taken of him, grusome, showing fixed eyes and realized we werent lying to him when we...

Short Update

It was a long night in Lorac Central. I tried laying down, but everytime I closed my eyes, well, you don't want to know the pictures that resounded through my head. and the echos of conversations last night. He is in ICU right now, breathing on his...

somebody just shoot me already............

As I sit here I still feel numb, and shaking and scared shitless. I got that call tonight, the on "no parent ever wants to get." and I do not ever want to go through it again. Twin 2, evidently started a methadone program on Monday. He has been...